I just ran a mile at the gym!
I realize this may not be cause for celebration in your world, but it was nothing short of a miracle in mine!
I'm just not a runner.
I wish I could be.
But I actually feel like something keeps me physically incapable of doing such a simple thing (for the record, my dad says he's always felt the same way).
Even at my most fit, I still haven't been able to run well.
I can't explain it...my body just breaks down.
I never hit that "stride".
I can swim for days. I can dance for hours. I just can't run.
But...I've been making myself try it again.
And today, for the first time, I made it the entire 8 laps around the track at the gym...one mile!
I've been making myself run 4 consecutive laps (1/2 mile) and then walking the other 4. But today, I got to the end of the 4th and felt like I could keep going. So, I did, and by the end of the 5th lap, I was actually feeling good (perhaps this is a taste of the "stride" runners talk about).
I stopped after running the mile, although I honestly felt like I probably could have kept going. I didn't want to mess up a good thing!
So, while this may not happen again the next time I go, I can't tell you how excited I was to accomplish such an amazing feat for once!
I'm not entirely sure why I'm so hung up on wishing I could run. But, I''m starting to get some insight. Actually, Julia Roberts was on Oprah yesterday & she was talking about running a 1/2 marathon. She said that she did it partly to prove to her children how strong the female body is.
That statement just got me.
I want my son to know that a woman can be physically healthy and strong. And I can't help but thinking that running is a great way to show him that. Even if I only ever run one mile at a time, at least he will know that I take care of my body and respect it- just like he should respect women & their bodies. Does that make sense?
So, for now, I'm going to do my best to run...4 laps at a time. And if I run a mile again- super!I'll continue to be challenged by women I know who are moms of multiple children and find the time & strength to show their children how strong & healthy a woman can be. Thanks to Julie, Sarah, Courtney and all you other mom-runners out there for being an encouragement to me!